Conditions of Entanglement

Doing before knowing what has been done.

Speaking before knowing what has been spoken.

Loving before knowing what has been loved.

Living before knowing what has been lived.

Such is the aura of madness which orchestrates discontents.

Bridges, separations, juxtaposed orders of intent.

Imbued into the colours of action. Inseparable from the potentials of each pigment bleeding onto our canvases of specificity.

Contentment? Elimination of the 'knowing' in all of the above. Doing what has been done. Speaking what has been spoken.

Expectation of contentment is an automatic influx of disappointment. Expectation of discontentment operates as conditions to lie naked within the fragmentation- to feel the ruptures between each realm- to be overtaken with the dissonance which this entire universal resolve rests upon.

Yet much more than this. Expectation becomes an annihilated attempt at such a point. To 'expect' would be to remain confirmed that any element of your knowing will proceed with confidence and therefore impede upon what actually is. Knowing is not accumulation. Expectation is the leading tone of a resolve which one has created in imagination. And if that resolve turns out to be disparate dissonance?

Lost hope. Lost faith.

When in reality, is complete hope and complete faith that such dissonance can arise, can be felt.

In the end, what is the resolve? It musn't be the resolve in imagination. It musn't be the resolve one has been trained for to expect. It shall never be found. If it is found, abandon it upon finding it for it is not the one. There never is one.

Accumulation is poison for the true search.

Searching is poison for the true search.

A search is an expectation of the act of 'finding'.

One can find death in that which it has bewildered by force. But, one searches no further than its affect on them. You cannot search for their death.

In that moment of realisation, you search yourself for death- imagining its possible grip, stare, laugh, wail.

Yet no sound or sight emerges.

This is where the search ends.

But in reality, it is where the notion of the search ends. It is where the notion of the imagination becomes utterly fruitless.

Notions are not entities.

Imaginations are not forces.

What lies between contentment and suffering is the difference between the notion of imagination and the entity of force. Suffering is not to 'know' the latter, but to become it. Choosing to be content is to become the notion of imagination, to 'know'- to exist within the division- to have accumulated enough to be both sides- to not be empty enough to be none of them.

Conditions of entanglement are not mere symptoms of existential suffering. They are patterns to weave into intentful action in the act of unraveled becoming.

And so I shall leave this thread for now.